Exhausted and Unmotivated, I reach across my sleeping son to turn the alarm off. Laying in bed I wonder what today will bring. I get up and pop a green tea diet pill and make a pot of coffee. I attempt to find an outfit... must be a perfect fit for the day. How much walking will I be doing? How many stops do I need to make? What am I going to carry around all day? How do I feel like sitting today? Jeans or a long skirt? Do I wanna show off my tattoos or am I going to be asking people to give me a job? What's the weather gonna be like? Layers or long sleeves? And so the ADD and OCD thinking takes full speed to process. I pace back and forth, completly dazed, smoking a cigarette I wish I didn't want. I dread the whole shower process and force my self to go on with the plan. Read more into my life within this website.